Christmas Blessings!

Miss O. and I had a fantastic Christmas! We got an awesome bike trailer from Grandma and Papa! Definitely my red rider bebe gun! Liv got this fantastic kitchen from "Santa," complete with great food.. Both items will bring needed imagination and adventure! Christmas is not about the items received, this I understand. However, with the wonderful gifts Liv and I have, I look forward to making memories that will be my gift always...

This is my First Time

Oct. 2008
















Over the last few months I've contemplated starting some kind of blog type thing.. Not that I'm one for blogging or even like the word.. However I do enjoy writing and I'm always one who revels in the opportunity to express my opinion. Lately I have been called out on my opinions or been criticized for saying something at the wrong place at the wrong time... So figured here I can just say, grip, write, express anything I want to.

I know what you're thinking.. "Kate why don't you start a journal?" Well I've tried that in the past and can safely say that journals never pan out the way I want them to. I have high expectations of epiphanies and deep insight into myself and then loose interest and get frustrated with them. However, I am on the internet pretty much all the time, and do need to find new ways to feed that addiction.

So I suppose I could recap my life over the past three years and comment on all the major changes, but I think that isn't necessary for the goals I'm trying to tackle right now...

So as of Dec. 29th, 2008- I am 25.. Definitely going through the quarter life crisis and often troubled with the trials and tribulations of feeling lost! I am unemployed(except for the ongoing full time job of mamahood) and I've recently been diagnosed with an ulcer, and chronic fatigue/ depression. Yes I will grip often about all those aforementioned because they are my current demons and I'm trying to work through them.

I am also very grateful for a slue of things! My family is wonderful and very supportive, my friends or as I refer to them as my chosen family are a true, true blessing! I will be attending school full time for spring semester and I'm looking forward to progressing even further into my grad program! And always Miss Liv who is the light of my life and without knowing out keeps me going and pushing through day-to-day..

As of right now I do have some goals. To define motherhood for myself. I want to be a mother who is comfortable in her own "mommy-skin," is that obtainable? I want to indulge in more of interests. I've gone into hermit mode way to much and there are so many things I want to explore, but haven't got to...(cooking, sewing, knitting,card making, hanging my photos..) I just want to be proud in my little triumphs. I want to strengthen the relationships I care about. I have neglected a few, and took advantage of others. I want to give equal love back.. I know it's in my heart I just need to find it and dust off the cobwebs.

Well I doubt anymore of my entries will be as long as this one. I do think it is my foundation and I'm excited to continue.. Here's the journey..