It's Just a Shoe!

I stopped at my favorite thrift store yesterday, on a whim. I don't have tons of money.. And now as I await the pending verdict of my beloved Jeep! I will have even less money. But I stop in to see if there was anything I could fine.

I really take pride in finding things at the thrift store. Its an art form really.. I love finding things people would normally spend a ton of money on, but I get for one or two dollars. Plus nowadays I can take a little pride in the recycle theory!

So you can imagine my delight when I found two pairs of stride rite shoes for Liv. I saw them on the rack, I figured that they would be to small and that I would not have "that kind of luck," but sure enough they were Liv's size! I did feel lucky, fortunate, excited, at the thrift store. Also relieved that the image conscience side of me, the ugly diva herself would be satisfied.

I am image conscience.. It's a beast I try to conquer, but fail miserably with! I worry for Liv and have the constant fear that my mood or stress about "the new momism," will effect her. I worry that she will be judged for my faults. I band aid that feeling whenever I can, and its usually something "in," for Liv. This time name brand name stride rite shoes did the trick..

I don't like the need for things. It drives me crazy and I don't want Liv to think that its the best way either. I want to be happy with what I have. I am thankful for my blessings and do acknowledge my surroundings and how good I have it! However there is the constant worry for more! The need to feel like I don't have to want for anything. One day hopefully it will be just a shoe.

Winter Reading List

This book was recommended by a friend. I want to read this book because I need some clarity and I hope it will help me discover a new kind of motherhood, which I desperately need.

This book is for my health! Yet again a recommendation from an awesome friend.. I'm hoping that this new idea of working from the outside/in will help me finally loose these extra lbs and also help me with my ulcer and fatigue.

This book I found on my own. Thanks Jax for getting it for me for Christmas :) I love Elizabeth Gilbert and totally ate up Eat,Pray, Love and The Last American Man. This is her first novel and I've already read the first couple pages and once again the voice is comforting.

So these are my books that will hopefully get me through part of this winter. I hate January, I feel like this is the beginning of winter and I so dread winter. So I'm hoping this one will be different, reading, sowing, and loosing weight will hopefully push me through these dreaded months and I can go into summer ready for the heat and freedom!

Peace!